Ok, I'm apologzing in advance for this, but I just really, really need to vent... 

 

*sigh* It's just been one of those horrible days when nothing seems to go right. Work was incredibly busy the last two weeks, and especially today. Every one of our thirty clients was calling today demanding job after job, and I was getting so frustrated! It was as if they all thought that they were the only jeweler that we ever did work for! Things have been so busy that we have only been able to get the rush jobs done, and our regular work is two weeks behind. That being said, some of the jewelers didn't mark all of their jobs for Christmas, and just put them with the regular work. So, today when they didn't have them, they were all calling asking where they were. Of course, being the secretary, I had to deal with all the demands and moaning and complaining. Besides the phone ringing off the hook, we had a tone of walk-in customers, and I had several pearl restringing jobs that HAD to get done today. It was complete bedlam!

 

I did manage to get everything done, but I had to stay late at work, and because of it nearly missed getting to the store to get the last present I needed before they closed. Thankfully I made it with ten minutes to spare. By then I was tired and hungry (especially since I had only had a cup of coffee all day), and I really just felt like finding someplace to sit down and cry.

 

So, homeward I went, hoping to get some quiet time and maybe finish up the last bit of wrapping I needed to do.

 

Oh, and of course, today was the day that some guy decided was the perfect day to pick a fight. He started asking me the same questions he's asked me about ten times over, and seriously, I was getting pretty annoyed. Didn't he have the courtesy to listen to the answers I was giving him? Or was he just completely distrustful of what I was saying? I don't know. All I know is when I pointed it out to him, he got all smug and acted like a total smart alec.

 

Have you ever felt like you just wanted to bang your head against the wall? Well, I did just then. I didn't blow up at him or anything, but I oet decidedly chilly in my demeanour towards him (which is usually how I express any anger towards a person. If I get frosty, beware...). And of course he just had to get snarky about that too, saying that flying off the handle is not communicating and that I'm terrible at communicating. I don't know, maybe I do just suck at interpersonal relationships, but I've been patient and been giving him the answers to his questions, and to keep asking me the same things over and over again, because he can't "see" how I'm going to do what I say I'm going to is just ridiculous. Can't people have a little more trust?!

 

It is a rare occasion when I don't follow through on things, especially big things, and this person knows me well enough to know that. *grumbles*

 

*sigh* I don't know, maybe he's just had a bad day too and needed someone to take it out on. Who knows. I just feel so worn out and like no one appreciates that I might be stressed too. Just because I can manage to keep a smile on my face, and be encouraging to everyone else doesn't mean that I'm not frazzled too. Sometimes I rue the fact that I can act so well, since it just seems to mean that I get walked over a bit more than a person normally would.

 

I know that these are hardly pleasant thoughts to be having this time of the year, but I just need to get them out. So anyone who's out there that knows anyone who's always smiling and upbeat, just be considerate of their mental health too. Just because they always seem happy on the outside doesn't mean that they aren't suffering inside. We cheerful ones need a hug and some encouraging sometimes, too.
 
And we're not trying to be difficult or sarcastic when we finally do reach the end of our rope. We've just really gotten to that point, and we need people to give us a rest for just a little bit. Please. For our mental health and your physical health, just leave us be for a bit. We will return to our normal sunshiny programming in a bit, but you may have to be patient and ride out the storm for a bit.

*breathe in, breathe out* Ok, I feel a bit better now. :)
 

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